ahead

I've been thinking a lot lately of next year. I just got Donovan back
a few months ago yet we already know his next departure date.

It comes from a slip of the mind sometime. Thinking if the future
ahead of what we are doing now which is what I will be doing alone
next time around. It is sad when I catch myself saying "next year we
will have to do this again, or go there, or do that..." and then have
to realize it will just be me again.

Even now that they are home it has been pre-deployment training since
they got off the plane. I might have talked to my husband more when he
was deployed then now. Off to work before I wake up, home around 7pm
for dinner, bed by 9pm. What the life. I cannot wait for the 2 years
off and 1 year on schedule.